I have lost a lot of what I thought were close friends over the past few years and I think it is an age thing, time of life with kids and possibly even a sideline of being a working Mum but it still makes me a little sad..
There are friends I thought would be with me forever, that I shared some really personal sides of me with that just simply don't seem to care what I feel anymore. I have reached out, emailed and suffered sleepless nights with anxiety over what I did to have them act like this...
BUT when I reflect on the ones I have gained in that time I feel so blessed, the people I work with who even though I don't see I am in constant contact via a quick email or text, some of the sellers on DTLL, the gorgeous on line community that have supported my journey
I trust and confide in them, the shit work stuff with the jaw dropping open up a hole and pull me in stuff. It is because I trust them and adore them like family.
In the past few years I have done nothing with any intention I do everything just because I wanted to do so. Of recent I have had some really touching things written or said to me and it makes me proud, it is a beautiful sentiment to be thought of in those ways and made me realise I don't need ALL those mates I had, I just need the ones that make me want to do nice things for.
What is better than loving to do things for someone else more than yourself ?
Cherie and I emailed the other day about this and a little lightbulb just switched off so much of the anxiety I have had of recent regarding lost relationships so I decided to share in case anyone else had been feeling the same.
Its quality over quantity huh? Have you shifted friendship circles with age? or am I alone?