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Suck it up Sista!!

Last week I shared an image on my Instagram where I captioned how I am not in the best place I have ever been..


 I quote ..

'Today I attacked it. I currently weigh 1kg more than I have ever (outside of pregnancy) and 4kg more than in the last 4 years.. Life is not all that easy at the mo and I am feeling really crap about myself, enough to have a cry about it.. so today started with a killer bush run with Dex. Exercise does wonders for your mental attitude, don't forget that.. Just over a month and I will claim back some serious training time from my mad @6days5whites husband!! Your day is what you make it.. So make it good'

I am fine.. I do these posts as I feel the need to be honest.. it is as much for others as me. I just know so many people who don't talk about it and suffer thier stupid thoughts and feelings thinking no one else has them..

My mental health is so good these days in that even when I am down I know its for a reason and I can rationalise my emotions. I know that crying can be cleansing and I go for it. I feel like a prat after as crying seemed way over the top given the situation but who gives a crap I feel better and no one else even knew!

Yes my work is hard at the moment, my husband is travelling and training a lot and life is 'FULL'.. futures are up in the air and it all takes a toll

BUT in the grand schemes of things my life is bloody awesome. I have so little to worry about compared to 90% of the world and I just have to remind myself that sometimes :)

My brother arrives to Aus in 7 days!!..WTF.. how can life be bad !! I won't have to discuss my irrational thoughts out loud to myself I will be able to call him!

The reality is all of us find it tough not to feel 'woe is me' when we are having a shitty week or seem to be getting the raw deal of a scenario, yet in the bigger picture I am like suck it up sista!!

your reality is still your reality..... and its still hard....

I am just sharing this here again to say share it out loud, share it, own it and don't be ashamed. You will be amazed at how many others are right by your side and right there ready to help.


Eight Things I WON'T Be Doing Before I Die

So Sonia did it  and when I read her blog I thought.. how hard can that be to say 8 things you will not be doing before you die but to say things you felt were 100% true was actually a little harder than I thought!!


1. New York, NO WAY!!.


I have visited and yes I am possibly too easily influenced by films and TV series but the US scares me, well certain parts. Gun rules are just too loose for me to ever settle and I would be a paranoid wreck coming from Australia


2. You won't find me playing Computer Games for 24 hours solid ever again..


We finally got the kids a Playstation this year (they are only allowed to play on weekends and school holidays) and I haven't played once. 
Years ago my boyfriend and I sat and played Resident Evil for 24 hours straight. I think that was my fill for life as I just can't seem to go back.


3. I will never be a smoker.


I was for 3 or 4 years from about 17 years old.. 1-2 packs a day and then I met my boyfriend, who is now my husband and he didn't smoke. I was so madly in love and in total honeymoon period that I decided to use it as a time to catalyst my giving up and it worked. 
Even if we had not lasted I would have been ever grateful to him for that. 


4. I won't allow my moral compass to be compromised.


I like to think that I have become a good person. I was a much more materialistic, self absorbed individual in my younger London days. These days I see myself as a very loyal and devoted friend, wife and mother.
I believe strongly in Karma and I go out of my way to be the best business person I can be with a strong moral ethic that I won't even compromise for cash.. I plan to keep that going forever..


5. I will not have any more bubs of my own.


My hubby is one of 5 and would love more kids, I sort of would also but we won't as our family is perfect for us and it is time for us all to grow older together with no distractions apart from each other.
I say my own as if someone I was close too ever needed a surrogate and I could do that for them, I would. 



6. My material belongings will never be valued over and above my family..


I have got to a point were I truly value family time above all else. I would be happy living in a tent with my brood. OK a tent is pushing it but point is I would sell everything and anything  to keep us fed and together. I would move anywhere (just not New York) and I just don't crave materialistic things the way I used too as I would prefer to buy an experience over a handbag.


7. I will never free climb a cliff wall 


Rock Climbing on a sheer cliff face with no ropes? WTF? Why? The idea of dropping and splitting my head on rock just paralyses me in fear..



8. I will never run the Marathon De Sables


Marcus is doing it this April with his 4 brothers. I would have loved to have done it with him but we would have had to wait until the kids were older so we could have trained together and as I know I wouldn't go it alone and he will not want to do it twice I am crossing it off my Bucket List and will find something new!



Eight Things I WON'T Be Doing Before I Die

So Sonia did it  and when I read her blog I thought.. how hard can that be to say 8 things you will not be doing before you die but to say things you felt were 100% true was actually a little harder than I thought!!


1. New York, NO WAY!!.


I have visited and yes I am possibly too easily influenced by films and TV series but the US scares me, well certain parts. Gun rules are just too loose for me to ever settle and I would be a paranoid wreck coming from Australia


2. You won't find me playing Computer Games for 24 hours solid ever again..


We finally got the kids a Playstation this year (they are only allowed to play on weekends and school holidays) and I haven't played once. 
Years ago my boyfriend and I sat and played Resident Evil for 24 hours straight. I think that was my fill for life as I just can't seem to go back.


3. I will never be a smoker.


I was for 3 or 4 years from about 17 years old.. 1-2 packs a day and then I met my boyfriend, who is now my husband and he didn't smoke. I was so madly in love and in total honeymoon period that I decided to use it as a time to catalyst my giving up and it worked. 
Even if we had not lasted I would have been ever grateful to him for that. 


4. I won't allow my moral compass to be compromised.


I like to think that I have become a good person. I was a much more materialistic, self absorbed individual in my younger London days. These days I see myself as a very loyal and devoted friend, wife and mother.
I believe strongly in Karma and I go out of my way to be the best business person I can be with a strong moral ethic that I won't even compromise for cash.. I plan to keep that going forever..


5. I will not have any more bubs of my own.


My hubby is one of 5 and would love more kids, I sort of would also but we won't as our family is perfect for us and it is time for us all to grow older together with no distractions apart from each other.
I say my own as if someone I was close too ever needed a surrogate and I could do that for them, I would. 



6. My material belongings will never be valued over and above my family..


I have got to a point were I truly value family time above all else. I would be happy living in a tent with my brood. OK a tent is pushing it but point is I would sell everything and anything  to keep us fed and together. I would move anywhere (just not New York) and I just don't crave materialistic things the way I used too as I would prefer to buy an experience over a handbag.


7. I will never free climb a cliff wall 


Rock Climbing on a sheer cliff face with no ropes? WTF? Why? The idea of dropping and splitting my head on rock just paralyses me in fear..



8. I will never run the Marathon De Sables


Marcus is doing it this April with his 4 brothers. I would have loved to have done it with him but we would have had to wait until the kids were older so we could have trained together and as I know I wouldn't go it alone and he will not want to do it twice I am crossing it off my Bucket List and will find something new!